My First love...Dilshod's diary found written back in 2004!!!By Dilshod Y. AhundjanoDilshod’s Diary found. It’s early October of 2004. Days are becoming to get bitter and we have Kokands wind in Ferghana these days! i am being pushed with my SEATS (Special Exchanges And its Total Significance) project, i am second year student of FerPi, i am so happy because i have completed this semester again with only A’s! I feel like that i’m a number 1 because all the ladies of FerPI coming to me with their math quizzes, it is really easy for me to solve them and they happy too. I’m so enthusiastic about my future prospective; i want to apply to a UGRAD fellowship right now! May be i will go to the states this year? I will be finalist! InshAllah! We went to C.A.F.E (Central Asian Free Exchange) to get some English books and to better our TOEFL score with my friend Otafayz. While coming back to our institute we met some old folks of FYEC and Cafe. Tohir from FerDU took some shots. I will receive the photos next week-end. While to come back to Institute i dropped in to see Nodir Rahmonov at FYEC, he is always there cracking up, i respect this dude. He’s ambitious and objective just like me and persistent, i am like that too, i push myself up to my limits to capture my aims in life. I think i am so egoist because i have got so many ambitions and goals, sometimes i think i am the one in the planet to come and rule everybody! So we headed to our nasty institute, many are ‘’bekorchi’’, i don’t hang with them, you know. I have my own gangJ Even my group mates are amazed by the fact that i am always on the go with others and not joining in their parties. Well, let’s say the truth, i hate this sort of parties and i have been to one in Kokand, did not like it at all. Guys will be drunk until late night and get some bitches. C’mmon, man this is not the way i like to construct my way in life! I’m faithful and if i will find my ‘’ queen’’ i will dedicate myself! Okay, what i was going to say? We are on the way to institute, i did not go yet to inst. I am still hanging out in fer. City and i am in the ferghana city’s Garden saw some couples enjoying each other then i swiftly made a u-turn and went to Simus to dig some scholarships for overseas students, nothing handy this week but i’ma find scholarship anyways! Ok, let’s chillax, i need to check up some new freshes in Ferghana music store. I’m in now: what to choose? ‘’50 cent’’ got his album named what?: ‘’ Get rich or Die tryin’’’ sounds good. Let’s roll it. I am asking the store assistant to put the music and she plays. Wow. Sounds NICEJ. But i saw Eminem’s new album, too. Name’s ‘’ Encore’’. I’m asking the assistant to play the music. She gives me a hard time: ‘’please choose one we have so many customers!’’ I chose Em, i will play later in Damas on the way to Inst! Yeah, i did it, driver asked whats the hit is about? I’ma like: yo bro, this is a cool music. It’s called hip hop and is very popular in US and West. Hmmm. He got 200 sums that day out of my pocket! Motherf****ker! I must’ve paid 100 but i’m happy cos he played the song all the way to Kirguli (where the inst. Is located) and he appreciated my wish to listen . Alright, respect due to respect. Okay, next time i will pay 100 onlyJ. Well, i am appreciating my pocket money because i earn it! I wont ask dad to give me shekels, i am a big boy now. I am 19 years old! I teach and do some tutor thing at our institute with my friend Otafayz. But i am never cut off cash because i am getting A’s , plus i work and i’m not paying fees like many freaken uzbek dudes, i am studying for real and i am readin at C.A.F.E my subjects! The other day i lectured to my group mates from Marketing and exemplified some interesting figures and they all went so shocked including the teacher herself because i was teaching them the other methods of Marketing. I believe i have the talent of speech and motivation skills, do not know everybody applauded after i finished and i was so passionately speaking that i forgot an hour flew away so quickly and i spotted some sweat on my forehead! I guess i was exploiting a lot of energy but any how i am so energetic to get things done for the next day! Yeah, what i was about? Aight, i came to inst and met again with Otafayz (by the way he went home earlier because he had to do some things and i had to stay in Ferghana on my own for a while). Yeah, this time i came across with him in the dean’s office we went there because we were trying to fix ‘’cotton picking season and we will not to go there thing’’. I must describe how we were exactly looked alike at that time. I was wearing T-shirts instead of shirts (because i want to look original and i am very unique unlike everybody else!), khakis and adidas sneakers. I had my headphone on my neck and ‘’ bondarka’’s on my hand and my wacko backpack, i was looking just like street gangsters in US. Well, Otafayz was also wearing ‘ bondarka’’ and had bracelet’s on his hand too. We looked like so not uzbekish that dean’s first remark was ‘’ what the hell is this?’’ I went on: ‘’yeah, Mr. Alisher, it is a fashion season’’ I giggled. He scolded for half and hour about how the way we should appear at institute. ‘’ i did not give a shit’’ (frankly). So somewhat we solved the problem of not- to – go to cotton shitting season because we were ‘’gifted’’ students to sit for English TOEFL classes to teach others, goddamit, i was so happy because i did not have to pay for anything:) (because many students had to pay not to go to the cotton picking season at the time) and practise my English further along with teaching. It’s late May of 2004, days are getting brighter and brighter, everybody put on something lighter as uzbek summer is pretty hot. I am still ambitious as i have been, i am about to submit my SEATS project to the rectorate (institute headquarters) and i am so confident that i can accomplish every step that i take and i will take actions to achieve for my long-term objectives. Did i tell you? I was chosen as a semi-finalist to UGRAD programme this year (2004) and i am waiting for my final results. I am hopeful that everything would be okay. Oh, i have found one girl through my friend Ilhom and i wrote her couple of messages. She sounded so enthusiastic and optimistic that it built in me something like reverence and admiration towards this person. She seemed to me so positive and welcoming that i had to write to her again. She sent me her photos which were taken overseas and she looked very beautiful. Days became lighter and humid weather overwhelmed our city, i was so into my ambitions that i probably did not care much about weather and kept doing my research. I finished my second semester also with only A’s and without fees.:) I was involved with much reading and with my finals. I stepped down from the 3rd floor to the 2nd vestibule of Economics faculty in our inst and came close to the main window where i could see bright sky and shiny weather and noisy students’ crowd clashing with one another in the hopes of getting out as it was really hot indoors of the inst. All of a sudden, i heard my name: ‘’ Do you know the guy by the name ‘’ Dilshod’’?’’ The sound captured me suddenly and i stood still for sometime avoiding losing my confidence. The voice came nearer and i saw the face of a beautiful and extremely ambitious girl who was approaching towards me but she did not see me before therefore she did not recognize me immediately and alas i was standing a way towards window and she was 15 meters in front of me. She was surrounded with a lot of older students of our economics faculty and was questioned about her visit to overseas and everybody was so happy to see her again. I thought for a moment. Who might be she? Perhaps someone who has done so much to her group mates and earned their appreciation? Then i heard my name again and she came close to me and we greeted each other. She greeted with me warmly and quickly and my first impression was : ‘’ oh man, do not lose your control!’’ but i pretended to look ambitious and confident as always. I was wearing light blue jeans and light blue striped T-shirt (was not looking like a gangster thank GodJ). She asked if i am free and after knowing that we have got only 30 minutes break in our disposal (as it was lunchtime) she rushed me through downstairs and we went outdoors and set to the bench which was just opposite to economics faculty building and we took a sit on the bench below the ‘’chinor’’ tree and i enjoyed shadows and a little breathe and her gorgeous vice was so exciting that i needed to breath in intensely not to show her my composure. She was so excited about her overseas trip and tried to help me to explain how to be a foreign student and how was it much different from uzbek student life. She showed me her photos taken in overseas and she looked so pretty and indeed she was not wearing a make-up but her face was very charming and her eyes met my eyes sometime then i had to breathe in invisibly but it was so hard. My hands trembled a bit when i not knowingly approached her beautiful and tiny fingers. Then I quickly get rid of my hand as i was shivering deep beneath but showed myself very firm. At least i hope i did so. She went so exciting about her trip to overseas and many students looked so jealous when we sat next to each other. She showed and gave me some overseas coins which i have at home now. She showed me her student ID and some ID for getting food, I instinctively realised she loves food, oh that’s good, mate! That was most exciting day in my life. I never met in my life a girl with such a passion and ambition, my passion run high and my spirituality got me confused. At the end of the conversation she gave me her home telephone, i guess she did not have a cell phone at the time. (i did not have one as wellJ))). I e-mailed her several times and later i heard she had a meeting to students about her journey to overseas and she made a speech. Everybody in inst was talking about her. I was speaking with Sharifa opa the next day or two and suddenly Sharifa opa (my English teacher) introduced her to me and i went we know each other pretty well, did not we? She cheerfully confirmed. Then we had to walk out to somewhere out of inst and we talked in English and everybody was sort of confused by seeing two uzbek studs speaking in English. She corrected my English couple of timesJ I was hurt a bit but did not show it. She seemed such an intellectual to me that she theft my evenings to think of her and i e-mailed her some letters. She responded! I am a very expressive and open person by nature if i feel something i would like to share with somebody and i spoke of my feelings towards her through e-mail. May be i was too quick and too sudden for her but i did not want to hid my feelings, i am a warrior, i like to take risks and i risked my feelings. I took action! I told her about my feeling may be she thought of it as a joke as i was cracking jokes when i saw her with her young sister at our friggin’ institute! Yeah, you are right she did not respond to me. Because any intellectual girl would think about my actions very weird and i would be thinking if in her place who the idiot is that intriguing my life so suddenly and messing with my private life. I did not blame her she took me as a friend, maybe as a brother! I admit that i was quick. I wrote her a letter of admiration in 2 weeks time! It’s very quick period but within these two weeks i learnt her completely and fantasised in my dreams! I am emotional and sensitive , i admit that part but i am tough too. So the next couple of days i went tough and strange towards her, i just said hi and my pride overcome me and i stopped to communicate with her. Did not call her any longer. When i saw her in the Ferpi pathways i went swiftly across her not greeting even! It is very bad habit i accept that but i am what i am. I am very deep you know. My last blunt date with her was in Simus internet cafe when we came across each other once again before she flew away overseas. She was looking so pretty and wearing light pink shirts on her. Very culminated point of our meeting came to life; we sat next to each other separately in computers and we conversed about scholarships and stuff. I hold her gaze for about 3 minutes not getting away my eyes from hers and she hold the gaze too, it was so remarkable gaze that I would think now of her as my first crush or love! Then we departed. I called her sometime later, wished her good luck and she flew away to overseas. We never met each other after that. I feel she was my first love. We never met each other face to face after that last meeting...
Dilshod’s Diary found.
It’s early October of 2004. Days are becoming to get bitter and we have Kokands wind in Ferghana these days! i am being pushed with my SEATS (Special Exchanges And its Total Significance) project, i am second year student of FerPi, i am so happy because i have completed this semester again with only A’s! I feel like that i’m a number 1 because all the ladies of FerPI coming to me with their math quizzes, it is really easy for me to solve them and they happy too. I’m so enthusiastic about my future prospective; i want to apply to a UGRAD fellowship right now! May be i will go to the states this year? I will be finalist! InshAllah! We went to C.A.F.E (Central Asian Free Exchange) to get some English books and to better our TOEFL score with my friend Otafayz. While coming back to our institute we met some old folks of FYEC and Cafe. Tohir from FerDU took some shots. I will receive the photos next week-end. While to come back to Institute i dropped in to see Nodir Rahmonov at FYEC, he is always there cracking up, i respect this dude. He’s ambitious and objective just like me and persistent, i am like that too, i push myself up to my limits to capture my aims in life. I think i am so egoist because i have got so many ambitions and goals, sometimes i think i am the one in the planet to come and rule everybody! So we headed to our nasty institute, many are ‘’bekorchi’’, i don’t hang with them, you know. I have my own gangJ Even my group mates are amazed by the fact that i am always on the go with others and not joining in their parties. Well, let’s say the truth, i hate this sort of parties and i have been to one in Kokand, did not like it at all. Guys will be drunk until late night and get some bitches. C’mmon, man this is not the way i like to construct my way in life! I’m faithful and if i will find my ‘’ queen’’ i will dedicate myself! Okay, what i was going to say? We are on the way to institute, i did not go yet to inst. I am still hanging out in fer. City and i am in the ferghana city’s Garden saw some couples enjoying each other then i swiftly made a u-turn and went to Simus to dig some scholarships for overseas students, nothing handy this week but i’ma find scholarship anyways! Ok, let’s chillax, i need to check up some new freshes in Ferghana music store. I’m in now: what to choose? ‘’50 cent’’ got his album named what?: ‘’ Get rich or Die tryin’’’ sounds good. Let’s roll it. I am asking the store assistant to put the music and she plays. Wow. Sounds NICEJ. But i saw Eminem’s new album, too. Name’s ‘’ Encore’’. I’m asking the assistant to play the music. She gives me a hard time: ‘’please choose one we have so many customers!’’ I chose Em, i will play later in Damas on the way to Inst! Yeah, i did it, driver asked whats the hit is about? I’ma like: yo bro, this is a cool music. It’s called hip hop and is very popular in US and West. Hmmm. He got 200 sums that day out of my pocket! Motherf****ker! I must’ve paid 100 but i’m happy cos he played the song all the way to Kirguli (where the inst. Is located) and he appreciated my wish to listen . Alright, respect due to respect. Okay, next time i will pay 100 onlyJ. Well, i am appreciating my pocket money because i earn it! I wont ask dad to give me shekels, i am a big boy now. I am 19 years old! I teach and do some tutor thing at our institute with my friend Otafayz. But i am never cut off cash because i am getting A’s , plus i work and i’m not paying fees like many freaken uzbek dudes, i am studying for real and i am readin at C.A.F.E my subjects! The other day i lectured to my group mates from Marketing and exemplified some interesting figures and they all went so shocked including the teacher herself because i was teaching them the other methods of Marketing. I believe i have the talent of speech and motivation skills, do not know everybody applauded after i finished and i was so passionately speaking that i forgot an hour flew away so quickly and i spotted some sweat on my forehead! I guess i was exploiting a lot of energy but any how i am so energetic to get things done for the next day! Yeah, what i was about? Aight, i came to inst and met again with Otafayz (by the way he went home earlier because he had to do some things and i had to stay in Ferghana on my own for a while). Yeah, this time i came across with him in the dean’s office we went there because we were trying to fix ‘’cotton picking season and we will not to go there thing’’. I must describe how we were exactly looked alike at that time. I was wearing T-shirts instead of shirts (because i want to look original and i am very unique unlike everybody else!), khakis and adidas sneakers. I had my headphone on my neck and ‘’ bondarka’’s on my hand and my wacko backpack, i was looking just like street gangsters in US. Well, Otafayz was also wearing ‘ bondarka’’ and had bracelet’s on his hand too. We looked like so not uzbekish that dean’s first remark was ‘’ what the hell is this?’’ I went on: ‘’yeah, Mr. Alisher, it is a fashion season’’ I giggled. He scolded for half and hour about how the way we should appear at institute. ‘’ i did not give a shit’’ (frankly). So somewhat we solved the problem of not- to – go to cotton shitting season because we were ‘’gifted’’ students to sit for English TOEFL classes to teach others, goddamit, i was so happy because i did not have to pay for anything:) (because many students had to pay not to go to the cotton picking season at the time) and practise my English further along with teaching.
It’s late May of 2004, days are getting brighter and brighter, everybody put on something lighter as uzbek summer is pretty hot. I am still ambitious as i have been, i am about to submit my SEATS project to the rectorate (institute headquarters) and i am so confident that i can accomplish every step that i take and i will take actions to achieve for my long-term objectives. Did i tell you? I was chosen as a semi-finalist to UGRAD programme this year (2004) and i am waiting for my final results. I am hopeful that everything would be okay. Oh, i have found one girl through my friend Ilhom and i wrote her couple of messages. She sounded so enthusiastic and optimistic that it built in me something like reverence and admiration towards this person. She seemed to me so positive and welcoming that i had to write to her again. She sent me her photos which were taken overseas and she looked very beautiful. Days became lighter and humid weather overwhelmed our city, i was so into my ambitions that i probably did not care much about weather and kept doing my research. I finished my second semester also with only A’s and without fees.:) I was involved with much reading and with my finals. I stepped down from the 3rd floor to the 2nd vestibule of Economics faculty in our inst and came close to the main window where i could see bright sky and shiny weather and noisy students’ crowd clashing with one another in the hopes of getting out as it was really hot indoors of the inst. All of a sudden, i heard my name: ‘’ Do you know the guy by the name ‘’ Dilshod’’?’’ The sound captured me suddenly and i stood still for sometime avoiding losing my confidence. The voice came nearer and i saw the face of a beautiful and extremely ambitious girl who was approaching towards me but she did not see me before therefore she did not recognize me immediately and alas i was standing a way towards window and she was 15 meters in front of me. She was surrounded with a lot of older students of our economics faculty and was questioned about her visit to overseas and everybody was so happy to see her again. I thought for a moment. Who might be she? Perhaps someone who has done so much to her group mates and earned their appreciation? Then i heard my name again and she came close to me and we greeted each other. She greeted with me warmly and quickly and my first impression was : ‘’ oh man, do not lose your control!’’ but i pretended to look ambitious and confident as always. I was wearing light blue jeans and light blue striped T-shirt (was not looking like a gangster thank GodJ). She asked if i am free and after knowing that we have got only 30 minutes break in our disposal (as it was lunchtime) she rushed me through downstairs and we went outdoors and set to the bench which was just opposite to economics faculty building and we took a sit on the bench below the ‘’chinor’’ tree and i enjoyed shadows and a little breathe and her gorgeous vice was so exciting that i needed to breath in intensely not to show her my composure. She was so excited about her overseas trip and tried to help me to explain how to be a foreign student and how was it much different from uzbek student life. She showed me her photos taken in overseas and she looked so pretty and indeed she was not wearing a make-up but her face was very charming and her eyes met my eyes sometime then i had to breathe in invisibly but it was so hard. My hands trembled a bit when i not knowingly approached her beautiful and tiny fingers. Then I quickly get rid of my hand as i was shivering deep beneath but showed myself very firm. At least i hope i did so. She went so exciting about her trip to overseas and many students looked so jealous when we sat next to each other. She showed and gave me some overseas coins which i have at home now. She showed me her student ID and some ID for getting food, I instinctively realised she loves food, oh that’s good, mate! That was most exciting day in my life. I never met in my life a girl with such a passion and ambition, my passion run high and my spirituality got me confused. At the end of the conversation she gave me her home telephone, i guess she did not have a cell phone at the time. (i did not have one as wellJ))). I e-mailed her several times and later i heard she had a meeting to students about her journey to overseas and she made a speech. Everybody in inst was talking about her. I was speaking with Sharifa opa the next day or two and suddenly Sharifa opa (my English teacher) introduced her to me and i went we know each other pretty well, did not we? She cheerfully confirmed. Then we had to walk out to somewhere out of inst and we talked in English and everybody was sort of confused by seeing two uzbek studs speaking in English. She corrected my English couple of timesJ I was hurt a bit but did not show it. She seemed such an intellectual to me that she theft my evenings to think of her and i e-mailed her some letters. She responded! I am a very expressive and open person by nature if i feel something i would like to share with somebody and i spoke of my feelings towards her through e-mail. May be i was too quick and too sudden for her but i did not want to hid my feelings, i am a warrior, i like to take risks and i risked my feelings. I took action! I told her about my feeling may be she thought of it as a joke as i was cracking jokes when i saw her with her young sister at our friggin’ institute! Yeah, you are right she did not respond to me. Because any intellectual girl would think about my actions very weird and i would be thinking if in her place who the idiot is that intriguing my life so suddenly and messing with my private life. I did not blame her she took me as a friend, maybe as a brother! I admit that i was quick. I wrote her a letter of admiration in 2 weeks time! It’s very quick period but within these two weeks i learnt her completely and fantasised in my dreams! I am emotional and sensitive , i admit that part but i am tough too. So the next couple of days i went tough and strange towards her, i just said hi and my pride overcome me and i stopped to communicate with her. Did not call her any longer. When i saw her in the Ferpi pathways i went swiftly across her not greeting even! It is very bad habit i accept that but i am what i am. I am very deep you know. My last blunt date with her was in Simus internet cafe when we came across each other once again before she flew away overseas. She was looking so pretty and wearing light pink shirts on her. Very culminated point of our meeting came to life; we sat next to each other separately in computers and we conversed about scholarships and stuff. I hold her gaze for about 3 minutes not getting away my eyes from hers and she hold the gaze too, it was so remarkable gaze that I would think now of her as my first crush or love! Then we departed. I called her sometime later, wished her good luck and she flew away to overseas. We never met each other after that. I feel she was my first love. We never met each other face to face after that last meeting...
Dear friends,
Let me wish you the same warm regards to all of you.
I thank you all for being my friend or acquaintance and surviving with me until today, witnessing my both ups and downs. I kindly apologise from all of you if I did anything excruciatingly bad or mean, in times I must admit i can be bad and arrogant, nice and happy as it is my humanness and my nature. I thank you all for your tremendous patience and for bearing friends with me so far so forth.
But today, i do not want to talk about my neither ups nor downs. Today, i want to turn your whole attention to global issues. Our world’s shaping a globalisation; it is natural, as I’m mean or happy in times, to witness both positive and negative changes of our present world as well. Yes, there have been a great deal of painful and heartbreaking times, just remember Gaza & Israel conflicts when hundreds of innocent civilians had to die because of political and economical turmoil that has been done by some country leaders, just remember how many people died by violent terror attacks in Mumbai or Pakistan, Afghanistan...so many that i can even lose my grip on counting all of the events that our world is now facing. Today i encourage each of you to take an action, to end hunger, to prosper universal education, gender equity, child health, to stop child labour, maternal health, combat HIV/AIDS, to sustain environment and develop global partnership. You may be waving your hands over my birthday statement as it can seem too ridiculous to some of you, but i am convinced that all of you support peace in the world not shooting bombs and third world war. Time is today when you show your kindness as a power over animosity, time is today when you realise that you will take action to prevent hunger, poverty and to sustain equality, time is today you will make a plan and DO something against all types of violence. Dear friends, we need to elucidate present problems and be vigilant for any unprecedented events. If you keep still looking to your monitor and having read my above statement still have uncertainly or thinking it is the job of others or politicians, i will tell you this, it is YOUR contribution and commitment, cooperativeness and kindness that can make a difference. If you are still uncertain taking any sorts of action against those mentioned , let me tell you this, tomorrow it can be too late to someone who needs your mercy or kindness , tomorrow it can be too late for someone breathing today to hear your kind words from your mouth, tomorrow it can be too late to prevent the war....
I will re-state my words again, it is not the job of politicians to make a difference it is our job and should be our mission to DO something important each of our day and that is going to be YOUR BIG BIRTHDAY WISH OR PRESENT for me. That can heal the pain of someone who is in pain or suffering. YOU can touch the soul of orphans, YOU can alleviate the heart of someone in trouble by giving a little bit of your care and attention, YOU can prevent a possible war by your contribution and determination in justice , YOU can give a life support to someone who is in trouble, YOU can give a life to someone who is dying. YOU can make a difference TODAY on 10th of June, 2009.
Thank you for your kind attention,
I will expect your ’’ birthday gifts’’
Thank you so much,
Dilshod.Y.Ahundjanov
Just a heck of a thought: How can you make your life more beatiful and funnier? One way to look at it , it is an easy question but to look at it closer you will soon realise that it is sometimes necessary thing to think of it. So what i did to solve this dilemma?
I just set a bunch of goals in front of me and tried my life to decorate with them, am still in the process, mean, i like to set plans and follow'em. With this, i feel like i am doing better and think that am makin my life more brighter.
Well, you right , this is not always a first choice to me of course, like many others i also have many different hobbies and think that with hobbies and everything like that you might make your life more beatiful, too. For example, i like internet surfing, it is my hobby, so with using it i bacame familiar many things alas i was not aware before, plus i made bunch of friends round the globe. Is not that fabilous? fantastic? you bet. So, i think that one needs to have a hobby to make his life festive.
Likely, i strongly belive that all of us , even the ones who claims that they do not need a half part of another sex, also accept the fact that we are far too live without another sex, mean, its nothing to do with sex and anything but Allah made us a next half and with him or her we feel ourselves complete and we should percieve this idea as a wonder, miracle, you know and think it is one way to make yourself happy and enjoyed of your life.
Often, we are sort of in depression, those times we turn out to be not listening or caing anyone around , only that time HOPE, other definition: optimism saves us, gives us an unbelivable strenghth, power! Think, everyone has this optimism but we just do not know where it is hided back in tha dark place in our soul. We need to just seacrh and find out and do things with optimism! think, for me optimism best gift that were given by my mother after birth and my energy and engine inside me always exhilarates and inspires me always to look things with good eyes and open soul and make things better never worse!
Another very interesting thing we avoid in our lives is LOVE which is not only to your beloved, but to people, animals, motherland, place where you live , person you adore and most of all LOVE towards your parents who gave you birth to live, you can not deny that you LOVE it but sometimes most of us are not into showing this off. Show it and you will get back with the same warmness and openness you gave'em!
Another thing to make our life better and festive, happier whatever you ca call it for your own sake is to be thankful. By to be thankful, i mean to be thankful to everything, to live, to walk , to sleep, to eat, just to read this my testimont cos you are seeing. There are dozens of people who can not see, there are dozens of people around the corner who have no objectives in life, but u have! and you should be thankful for this! why not? you are human, is not it good? what if you were a pig or a fly.?
Thinking more deeper'n deeper i figure that i think one of the best qualities in my life to make my life brighter is my faith. To be faithful and to realise of your existance and to be thankful to your creator is the most like in the world to my mind. To join or not it is your business, friend!
Friends should have a noticeable place and stable way to make your life better as well, at least i think so. Let's say you got sick and you alone and you've got nobody to talk to or in other words, you got no friends. i think it is the worst thing that is to any human being. Cos alonness and lonniliness is only and again am reciting you again only to Allah, to God to our creator!
The meaning of life is not just live without having a track in something, mean without doin anything worthy. it is foolish, you know. Atleast, i can not consume this conception at all, cos in my point of view, aperson who has been given a birth who is not a fetus already has got to have some reason to live, not just to live but to help, contribute, make people's life easier, correct mistakes and avoid conflicts..etc etc...The point here is, to live the worthy life and to be proud with tha fact that when you live your life to the ends you will be rested that you did SOMETHING worthy and you did not just spend your life for eating and drinking. Guess, that's is the very very crucial and necessary thing every human being whatsoever his or her national origin, status in life, sex...whtva....
Additionally to all of the thesis ive forwarded above, i can add the fact that we can be satisfied when we could generate someone after us, mean someone who can live the worthy life like we did, someone who can achieve the things that we could not have achieved while in our lifetime. Yeah.... kids are very energy givin and motivating factor in life and they make our life luckier, funnier, happier...and all positive adjectives which are excited to come by my mouth:) Because, i am not yet dad but i can sense how to have given a chance to be a dad. cos it is great and awesome, is not it???
Finally, i should note and admit that we have been given life and we are to get it beatiful not others to us. We just not to wait to miracle happen, we should make the miracle ourselves!
Thank you for your patience,
Mr.Dilshod Y.Ahundjanov
at 3:16 pm February 7 2008 (in case i forgotta date:)))
